Life is a struggle everyday and in the process called living it we learn and unlearn, make and unmake, so many things along with memories. Today it feels like in a blink of eye I came a long way living 20 years of my life. Being born on 15th of November, 1999 in a small village called Dhanipur, never did I imagine I would reach this far chasing my goals. My father Najam Uddin Choudhury, a very simple man who has nothing to do with anything else but farming and at home remains my mother Nurun Nessa Choudhury who never seems tired of managing a family of four amidst all constraints. Although a farmer, my  father had towering dreams of me. They had always been my inspiration to grow every coming day. Taking into cognizance the financial constraints they couldn't not send me to a fancy English Medium Private School but to a govt. LP school named after my village Dhanipur. Within themselves they were fostering the dreams to send me to the best school our district Hailakndi, Jawahar Navodaya Vidyalaya. With God's blessings I didn't let their dream go in vain. I appeared for entrance examination and finally made it to the list of 80 students selected in JNV batch 2012-2019. The year 2012 was the beginning of a new chapter in my life. It was a great leap towards achieving my cherished dreams. The new school came with new friends, new teacher’s, new environment. JNV was the only one of its kind I would say. The diversity there in terms of culture, language, learning would be a lifelong memory. The teachers there were amazing, opened ever new domains of learning everyday one can't think of. Today whatever I think, whatever I believe, whatever I do, a part of it is because of my lessons there.

.      Hostel life makes you a complete person I believe. You have to live your own life managing all the odds coming your way. There is nobody to spoon feed you. I think this 7year made me a self-reliant man to a greater extent. The years in hostel made me an amiable, compassionate being which otherwise i was an overtly introvert person. Upon introspection I see my school made me ever inquisitive to learn what is happening around me which eventually turned me into a keen observer of mighty nature. I realised often nature teach us silently what others can't do by shouting. I feel it made me a kind human who can't ignore the impoverished beings all around him, the needy around him, the voiceless around him.  Apart from teaching me my social responsibilities it did reach me entrepreneurship; i I would say social entrepreneurship. I see myself capable to be a tomorrow's entrepreneur who cater to ever changing needs of the society, who stands in solidarity with the cause of equality. Ln a nutshell JNV made me the ideal of what a leader in making should be.

          It seems i am writing encyclopedia of the goods in me but unfortunately man is amalgamation of good and bad. I find myself falling short in so many attributes. From very childhood it is being taught to us to be selfless for the larger good of our world but still today I find a human inside me who sometimes has to fight hard with his selfish motives before accomplishing a task. Of course, it is not good but still I have to live with it with rooms of improvement every day. Our selfish nature gives birth to ego. Every day I find myself battling with my ego. I know ego is not at all a good quality if someone wants to be a people's person. Ego always brought hurdles in tackling situation where lies conflict of interest. Keeping this in mind I always seek for improvement.

  The rules and regulations of a residential school makes oneself disciplined and punctual at the same time but ridiculously I find myself in a tough time being a disciplined boy. Sometimes I laugh at my indiscipline because even being a NCC cadet I failed to inculcate this in my nature. Adding to the list of what I regret of is my stage fear. Even though I was in a school which conducted regular cross curricular activities but I could not get over with my stage fear yet.

The negatives in me are in overwhelming capacity unfortunately although I am doing great in so many aspects of my life. Like, every other time I feel so down about my capabilities, about my physique, and so many other things which sometimes I feel are necessary hindrances of my growth.

‌              Talking of goods and bads, it would never come to an end.  That's why I try to learn and unlearn every day. Among my best experiences of learning I find is writing my new book namely " Waiting for you. "The writing proved to be an exercise of introspection and clarity along with learning for me. I hope sooner or later I will stand tall overcoming all these positives and negatives, proving a blessing for my parents and society indeed.